The Season Of Unemployment

I had plans, I had a timeline. I typed out on my notes, that within 3 months of graduating I would have secured my grad job. Within one month is what I really wanted, I just put 3 so I felt as if I wasn't putting as much pressure on myself. I started applying from early hoping and thinking it would give me a sort of edge, it did with interviews. However, if I didn't butcher the interview then the pay was literally nonexistent.

The fact that I would be graduating and needed a full time job that would pay my bills, made it hard and added an extra pressure when job searching. One month flew by but summer was in the air so I allowed myself to enjoy it and my friends company, I did graduate with a 2:1 after all, why not live life a little? Two months came around the bend and more of my friends were sharing their good news and I was happy for them but then began to worry a bit more. I would drift between lapses of my mental health plummeting and then feeling motivated to do application after application. I couldn't keep up with my own emotions.

During September I had 3 massive shoots and was feeling good about having freelancing going for me, but the money was going in and out of my bank account as I didn't have any other shoots coming through. It wasn't enough, freelancing wasn't enough so it was back to the drawing board. 3 months came around and I was done, I hadn't achieved my goal. I did get offered a possible position for January but it wasn't certain. That wasn't good enough.

I saw a digital PR position going in my hometown and said I'll try my luck and just apply. Within an hour of submitting my application I got a email for an interview, I went for the interview only to find out when I arrived it was a group one. Panic set in but I reminded myself of my mothers words before I left: you will return home with good news. I did, I was offered the job by the end of the interview.

Its been two weeks and I am so happy at my job, I love what I do, I love my bosses and co-workers. I actually get paid and there's a office dog plus, it's flexi hours so I can come in as early as 7:30 or as late as 10 am if I want. My bosses took us all out for Thai food this week and I had a proper chance to bond with my coworkers and get to know them. They've all been very sweet messaging me individually to see how I'm settling and some were even so kind to tell me that they are happy I'm here.

If you are reading this and you're someone in a position where you're still waiting for that job or you're not understanding why God has put you in the position you're in: continue to have faith, that job is coming and you will soon understand why you've had to wait. For a long time I debated whether I should take the jobs I was being offered but I just knew it wasn't meant for me.

The season of unemployment can be so hard because you begin to question yourself, whether you're good enough and if you're doing the right thing. It is okay to be upset, to worry and to question yourself but it is wrong for you to give up on yourself and God if you're storing your faith in him. You owe it to yourself to go for the things you really want in life, to want the best from life. I had many friends turn to me and tell me that they're not happy at their job and are thinking of changing, so if you are someone who is applying to anything and everything or pondering taking any job then can I encourage you to use that energy to apply for the ones you actually want.

"One day when you wake up, the worry and stress that was weighing you down for days, weeks, months will disappear into thin air. Although it's not certain when that day will come, have faith that it will."

I was asked how I got through the period and honestly if it wasn't for those around me I don't know how I would have. I know people who were in this position for longer, to you guys your strength amazes me. My mum encouraged me every day to enjoy the free time I had because soon it would be gone and she's right. Use the time you have, to work on personal projects, things you couldn't do before. Now that I'm working Monday to Friday, I can't shoot like I could before, I can't stay up till 3 in the morning binge watching Netflix without having to face the consequences the next day. I also had to remind myself that the rejections I was getting and low ball pay offers weren't a reflection of my ability, that didn't mean I was any less capable or skilled just because they said no.

Also please don't be embarrassed, you will be surprised by how many people get made redundant, hate their job, are unemployed, it happens to everyone, you are not alone. Although it may feel like it, it's not a bad thing. Wake up and create a routine for yourself, apply for jobs in the morning, like it's your job, make a coffee and sit at your desk with your favourite songs playing in the background. Or go to a coffee shop and do applications while people watching. That also helped me, sitting in my room day in day out, wearing the same clothes didn't help me. It made me feel worse and like nothing was changing. But by going to work in a coffee shop I had something to look forward to, a nice drink, different scenery.

If you have a friend going through the same, go out and do work together. A problem shared can be a problem halved! You never know what someone is also going through until you ask them.

I also want to remind you, that if God has pulled you through everything thus far, why would he stop here? Ask yourself this question out loud, can you think of a good answer? The thing about adulthood is realising that no one is going to go out and get that job for you, so you can feel all those emotions you want to feel and that's fine, but don't let them take over you and let you remain comfortable in your unemployment. It took many attempts of me pulling myself out a dark place to finally push myself to do my best.

"feel what you need to feel and then let it go. do not let it consume you".

until the next post,
with love, yossy.

What's your opinion?

  1. Oh Yossy I’m so glad everything is panning out for you and that your new job is one that you feel comfortable and passionately about, it’s what you deserve. Thanks for being so honest and open about the whole process and journey, I know this will be a post I’ll come back in a few years time for some comfort. I especially love the line “I also want to remind you, that if God has pulled you through everything thus far, why would he stop here?” because it really does put it all into perspective- it’s definitely been copied and pasted into my notes :)

    Lots of love
    Dalal x

  2. This post could not have been any more timely. I've been unemployed for almost 3 months now and my mental health has been a rollercoaster. But God has brought me this far. Surely, he won't abandon me halfway. I'll get an amazing job soon and I'll come back here to share it with you! Thank you so much for sharing your story!


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